Hayden Michael Knudsen

was born on December 22, 2010 9 lbs 3 oz, 22 inches long to Joel and Elizabeth. He has a head full of dark hair and blue eyes and is absolutely beautiful! Elizabeth posted a picture of him and her on FB and I just can't stop looking at it! Its just beautiful to me!

As I write this the tears are just falling down my cheeks! Oh how I hurt for them...this should be a fun and joyous time for them and their families yet its sad as they are mourning his death. I can't even begin to imagine what they are feeling and going through! My heart just hurts for them.

I've been in constant pray for them the last few days but feel like I need to be doing more yet praying is the best thing I or anyone can do for them right now. I can't even bring myself to going up there to see them because I feel so guilty! So guilty for being pregnant, for being able to feel my little guy move inside me...just guilty! I know I shouldn't but right now I can't help it! Hayden and Parker could've been best friends like their daddies! They should be growing up, playing, fighting and everything else together but they won't be!

God is God and He is in control and He knew all along this was going to happen! He is going to use this and make something great!

Hayden I look forward to meeting you one day in Heaven! You are loved and will never be forgotten!

No words...

My heart is heavy today for some sweet friends, Joel and Elizabeth who are mourning the death of their sweet baby boy Hayden! Even when we don't understand we must trust and believe that God has another plan!

friends and babies

One of our college friends just had their first baby. Michael and Camille welcomed Joshua Andrew to their family last night(Dec. 16th). He weighed 8lbs 2.5 ounces and is 20 1/2 inches long! He is one handsome little guy!!!
Now the countdown begins for several others friends...Joel and Elizabeth(literally any day now), Tyler and Jeni(Jan.2nd),
JJ and Lindsay(Jan.7th), us(March 7th) and last but not least Tyler and Renee(April 24th)! Oh the joys of having friends who are having babies! Out of ALL that were mentioned there is only one lil girl and she's the baby of the bunch hehe! This could be trouble but the other boys will know that she is Parkers! Hehe ;)

CONGRATULATIONS Neff family!!

28 weeks

busy...

I'm so ready for this week and weekend to be over then just maybe it will slow down!!!!!
This week as been extremely crazy with Vision banquet preparations and now the christmas parties...I'm so extremely tired!
One good and very positive is that the decorations are done and in their place! Whew...that was some work!

26 weeks...

Here's a couple shirts that I've bought Parker! I can't wait for him to wear them :)
He is going to look so cute!!!!!!!!